Why “I Am” is better than “I”

Posted May 29, 2014

Filed under About Me, Bible Verse, England, Picture, song, Thoughts on Trusting God

“But when he saw the wind boisterous,

he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying,

Lord, save me.” – Matthew 14:30

Went to the vet yesterday. Things were going well until they told me that the rabies vaccine that the cats needed has been recalled and they are not sure when they are going to get it in again.

This is the same vaccine that they need at least 21 days before travel, there is less then 2 months before I am supposed to leave my home (I gave the landlord notice as per Gods leading), so this makes things a little bit stressful (if I choose not to give it all to God).

I do not currently believe that(in the natural) between kids, cats, home, and a million other things, that really anymore could be added to my plate without it shattering from the weight of it all.

But then there is God!

This morning I woke to the following lyrics playing in my head:

You’re the one who conquers giants

You’re the one who calls out kings

You shut the mouths of lions

You tell the dead to breathe

You’re the one who walks through fire

You take the orphan’s hand

You are the one Messiah

You are I AM

Hallelujah you live in me

Hallelujah you live in Me

I couldn’t help but smile.

I am such a human.

I start to get so sidetracked and wonder how “I” am supposed to do it all. How “I” am supposed to fit the pieces together.

God is probably shaking His head saying, “Hello, remember me? I AM in control, I AM the answer to all the questions, I AM able to work it all out, I AM enough!”

So while I like to be in control, I see a beauty in the chaos.

Because when all is said and done it will be God who gets the credit.

Miracles have a way of doing that.

Lyrics written by MercyMe from the album The Hurt & The Healer

God is Cool!

Posted May 9, 2014

Filed under About Me, England, Thoughts on Trusting God

God is cool!

He is a lot more than that, but He is also cool!!!

He always, always, always gives me what I need to keep going.

When God called me to England, I immediately began telling everyone because I am a follower of Jesus Christ and as John 10:27 says

My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me.

I knew, that I knew, that I knew that the Holy Spirit had called me.

Immediately I felt a deep longing for a place that I had never been.

I felt compelled to leave everything behind and go, for no other reason than because I knew God told me to, and that was enough.

At the time…for a while….as long as I stayed focused on God and not on the world.

But then life happened…pressures mounted.

Oh I can take the fact that 9 out of 10 people think I am crazy, I could take the fact that I had to leave a home I love and sell everything in it to go to a place I have never been (Actually I love adventure so that worked) in a short amount of time (August 1^st…that’s really close) but what I have the hardest time with is my Kids.

What is the hardest thing is my four kids (all grown, but the one who will come with me). I have some awesome kids, and as most mothers I would lay down my life for any of them in a heartbeat. But God is not asking me to lay down my life for them, but for Him.

Because I am his child, He understands my heart. He understands my getting sidetracked with sadness of leaving them and worries about how it will all work out, and He knows that I need encouragement to stay on track.

One of the ways that He is encouraged me is to guide me to Francis Chan, not in person but on video. I was encouraged as Francis spoke of what God was doing in his life, as he shared about living courageously with and for God.

It was exactly what I needed at the time to keep going.

That is why I think God is cool!

Just when I think I am the only one…when I think I am not strong enough for the load that I think I have to carry, God reminds me that I am not alone, and I am strong enough, stronger than I thing, because He is with me and is my strength.

So if you are feeling discouraged, or not up to the task that God has laid before you,

Lean into God.

Trust the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you into all that God has for you, and remember you are stronger than you realize because you have a very cool God who cares enough about you to give you what you need to keep going strong.

Everything is possible, if you…

Believers

We are called “believers” not doubters, so lets be radical and the next time God gives us that little nudge to do something, let’s do it, and “believe” that He will catch us if we hear Him wrong. – Lisa Cline

God wants us to say to Him….

God always has and always will look for men and women who say to Him, “I trust you so much, I’m all in. I want your way not mine. I am willing to live by faith!” – Chip Ingram