Why “I Am” is better than “I”

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“But when he saw the wind boisterous,

he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying,

Lord, save me.” – Matthew 14:30

Went to the vet yesterday. Things were going well until they told me that the rabies vaccine that the cats needed has been recalled and they are not sure when they are going to get it in again.

This is the same vaccine that they need at least 21 days before travel, there is less then 2 months before  I am supposed to leave my home (I gave the landlord notice as per Gods leading), so this makes things a little bit stressful (if I choose not to give it all to God).

I do not currently believe that(in the natural) between kids, cats, home, and a million other things, that really anymore could be added to my plate without it shattering from the weight of it all.

But then there is God!

This morning I woke to the following lyrics playing in my head:

You’re the one who conquers giants

You’re the one who calls out kings

You shut the mouths of lions

You tell the dead to breathe

You’re the one who walks through fire

You take the orphan’s hand

You are the one Messiah

You are I AM

Hallelujah you live in me

Hallelujah you live in Me

I couldn’t help but smile.

I am such a human.

I start to get so sidetracked and wonder how “I” am supposed to do it all. How “I” am supposed to fit the pieces together.

God is probably shaking His head saying, “Hello, remember me? I AM in control, I AM the answer to all the questions, I AM able to work it all out, I AM enough!

So while I like to be in control, I see a beauty in the chaos.

Because when all is said and done it will be God who gets the credit.  

Miracles have a way of doing that.

 

Lyrics written by MercyMe from the album The Hurt & The Healer

Why God sent me a cat in the middle of the night

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Most of the time I am super excited about what God has for me in England.

Sometime however, I am overcome with questions and angst about how it all is going to come together.

Last night, right in the middle of it, was one of those times.

The enormity of how much is supposed to get done in two months’ time, just plain freaked me out, so I turned to God and asked that He please calm my fears and give me peace.

I then heard a noise and turned my head to find my daughters cat (who was inches from my face) staring at me.

I picked her up and plopped her on my lap. She started purring instantly and fluffing me up before laying down.

This would not be remarkable except that this cat has never liked me. This cat loves my children but what usually happens when I pick her up is that she immediately scrambles to get away.

As I pet her and her purrs grew louder my fears grew smaller.

So why did God send me a cat in the middle of the night?

While it is true that God sent me the cat to calm my fears, and bring me peace.

The real answer is that God sent me the cat because He loves me.

Photo= Lisa Cline

P.S. that pic is of the actually cat….her name is Marshmallow