Why “I Am” is better than “I”

Posted May 29, 2014

Filed under About Me, Bible Verse, England, Picture, song, Thoughts on Trusting God

“But when he saw the wind boisterous,

he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying,

Lord, save me.” – Matthew 14:30

Went to the vet yesterday. Things were going well until they told me that the rabies vaccine that the cats needed has been recalled and they are not sure when they are going to get it in again.

This is the same vaccine that they need at least 21 days before travel, there is less then 2 months before I am supposed to leave my home (I gave the landlord notice as per Gods leading), so this makes things a little bit stressful (if I choose not to give it all to God).

I do not currently believe that(in the natural) between kids, cats, home, and a million other things, that really anymore could be added to my plate without it shattering from the weight of it all.

But then there is God!

This morning I woke to the following lyrics playing in my head:

You’re the one who conquers giants

You’re the one who calls out kings

You shut the mouths of lions

You tell the dead to breathe

You’re the one who walks through fire

You take the orphan’s hand

You are the one Messiah

You are I AM

Hallelujah you live in me

Hallelujah you live in Me

I couldn’t help but smile.

I am such a human.

I start to get so sidetracked and wonder how “I” am supposed to do it all. How “I” am supposed to fit the pieces together.

God is probably shaking His head saying, “Hello, remember me? I AM in control, I AM the answer to all the questions, I AM able to work it all out, I AM enough!”

So while I like to be in control, I see a beauty in the chaos.

Because when all is said and done it will be God who gets the credit.

Miracles have a way of doing that.

Lyrics written by MercyMe from the album The Hurt & The Healer

Spirit lead me here

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

– Hillsong (Oceans)

Why a tidy package is usually not what Christians get handed

Posted May 3, 2014

Filed under Bible Verse, England, Picture, Thoughts on Trusting God

I love when God moves in my life, when He wants to give me that hope for a better future.

I have to admit though, that while I love the thought of change, the messiness of it can freak me out.

I want God to hand me my future in a nice tidy package with a big bow …but that is not usually how it works.

Gods leading is more a matter of his putting something on my heart, and as I step out he confirms what he wills for me, with signs.

So ever since God first called me to England I have been getting signs from him to remind me that it is indeed His leading me, and that I am not loosing my mind.

A lot of the signs are simple and yet are clearly from God as there could not be that many “coincidences.”

Although I live just outside of Seattle, Wa…quite a distance from England… I have run across more things from England in the last few months than in my entire life.

I will not surely remember them all but will list a few here…

A customer thought he was paying with a penny…it was a pence. He had no idea where it came from, and I now own it.

English book, flags, plates, spoons, jigsaw puzzels, ets…have been everywhere I looked.

I run into someone from England about every 5^th day.

I dream about England (I have been for a year before I knew was going). I also have dreams about England in which parts have come true in Real life.

Whenever I question God’s plan for me to move to England something “English Related happens”

The two last “Coincidences” were to do with Manchester (the city I am going to)

I was at work and my friend/boss was talking with me about England and she came across a luggage tag (the paper kind the airport gives out) and it was stamped (Manchester) on it.

And

Yesterday I was thinking (even though I knew) “Am I really going to Manchester?” as I stood behind a counter at work. I turned my head just then and noticed that a boy of around 12 had stopped directly in front of me, his back facing me, and his crisp white shirt with read lettering answered my question.

It had bright red letters and on the top half said Manchester.

When I turned my head in disbelief at the timing, and look in the opposite direction he walked again in my view and again turned his back to me….

So although I want everything tidy and in a nice package with a bright red bow, so that I don’t “have to” worry, the fact is…I not only don’t have to worry….I am not supposed to!!!

And if you are a Christian, neither are you… you are NOT flying blind!!!

God tells us through His word that…

“The LORD will continually lead you; he will feed you even in parched regions. He will give you renewed strength, and you will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring that continually produces water.” (Isaiah 58:11, NET)

When God is leading you and you are finding it hard to believe…Ask Him for a sign. He has promised that as He leads you H e will revive you when weak.

So while you may not always get the tidy package from Him that you want…you can be sure that you will get the bow, because while God plans for our live are rarely, if ever, tidy…the signs are often as noticeable as a brightly colored bow.