Even when we don’t understand

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I heard a song that told me that God is perfect, ALWAYS. I must have heard that song 100 times, but that particular part of it, reminding me of who God is in relation to his love for me never felt so close to my heart as it did then.

Meditating on his love for me brought forth this prayer. If you are struggling in this area (of not feeling perfectly loved by God) I humbly offer it as a template to draw you closer to the one who LOVES YOU deeply and perfectly.

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Father God, you are such a good father. Thank you for loving me so well. I worship you and love you, Father God, for who you really are.

Thank you for allowing me to even know you. You are perfect in all of your ways, even the ways that I do not understand.

Forgive me for thinking you were not just to me. That I was overlooked or uncared for or just not loved as much as ____ was. For you are perfect in all of your ways and you have perfectly loved me all of my life.
Help me to stop looking around and comparing myself to others in terms of who you show love to more. For you are perfect in all of your ways and show no favoritism. You HAVE loved me just as much as you love ____.
Help me to always know the deepness, richness, and awesomeness of your love for me.
From this day forward I am choosing to let go of all the lies the enemy has told me about who you are and to cling to the truth.

That you are perfect in ALL of YOUR WAYS and that this includes perfectly loving me.
Thank you God for loving me so well. Help me to never forget the depth and perfection of your love for me.
In Jesus name, I pray.

Amen

How God used the Dr. Who TV show to show He cares about our details

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I have four children one of them is currently in college in Scotland studying geography. She is my oldest child. I can’t really call her child because she is on the latter and of her 20s.

At the beginning of the year we had a conversation about God. Now let me just preface this by saying she was raised in a Christian home though it was not always she knew the values that I held, and gave her life to Christ at a young age.

She has not always had it easy, she’s been through many traumatic things, and as a result came to believe in the deistic God (a God that created the world and is somewhere there but is not active nor cares about the details of the believer’s life).

This was not only heartbreaking but very confusing to me because she had seen time after time after time how God was in the details of my life. How God seem to order my steps in perfect unison.

I remember when we have the conversation about her beliefs I said, “Okay I respect your beliefs, but I will be praying that God will show you that He is indeed in the details.”

And in true God-of-the-details fashion He showed up and showed out.

So the thing is is that my daughter is a huge Dr. Who fan. She has every book, poster, blanket, teapot, shirt, and DVD ever made (while that may be a bit of an addict exaggeration but you get the picture).

So when she found out that they were giving tours of the set of the show Dr. Who (called the Tardis) in the month of November, she quickly bought a ticket.

A ticket she bought for was for a Thursday.

And while later she realized she hadn’t checked her email in a while. As she did so she saw the letter from the people at the Dr. Who experience saying that they were not going to be able to give a tour on that Thursday. The interesting thing as they said that if she replied to this email by this certain date at a certain time (let me just stop here to say it’s interesting that they gave a time limit because usually, at least in America, they give a date you have to apply to not a time) that if you replied they would reschedule you for a Friday.

She looked at the time and realized that she was an hour late to replying on time. Because they were all booked up for it every other day that month, she sadly resigned herself to the fact that she would not be able to see the Tardis before coming back to America.

I told her to not give up, and to see what God could do. I told her that God is in the details and knows how much she wanted this and if it was His will would give a to her.

I told her to email the people that sent the letter and tell them that she’s an American in Europe and this would be her only chance to see the set and ask if they could please squeeze her in.

A few days later she told me an excitement that she’d heard back from the company, and after some wrangling decided that they could fit her in on a Wednesday.

So to recap: she was supposed to go on Thursday, they were originally were going to reschedule for Friday, but because she missed the email she was rescheduled for Wednesday.

Why is that important?

Because after she found out she started thinking about grad school and realized that she wanted to go in Europe.

There were only two grad schools in Europe that taught her what she was learning. One of the grad schools was in Scotland where she was but the school that had the best program for her degree was in Cardiff, Wales.

Cardiff, Wales also happens to be the place where they film Dr. Who.

She got an idea that she should look up and see if the university has any days for international students to tour the campus for the graduate program.

They had two days a year where they did so.

One of the days was a day where she wasn’t going to be in Europe anymore. And the other day… You guessed it.

The only other day out of the whole year, that they were doing tours for international graduate students at that university, that happened to be within walking distance of the Dr. Who set, was on that same Wednesday that she was scheduled to take the tour.

Now remember she was going to school in Scotland and had to take an overnight bus to get there. She was missing one day of class and would have not felt comfortable on to miss anymore to go on the tour.

But our mighty God. Our God is the details. He designed it so that after taking a tour of the set and the whole Dr. Who experience, my daughter was able to walk over to the University and tour the school on a day designed to receive her.

God is in our details.

He cares about every aspect of our life. He is with us he is present and he loves each and every one of us with abandon.

God used the Dr. Who experience to allow my daughter to experience his love.

You can trust him with every detail of your life.

Ps…I got permission before sharing my daughters story

Freedom

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Royal Magistrate: The prisoner wishes to say a word.

William Wallace: [shouts loud and long] Freedom!

 

The past few months I have felt a struggle going on within me. I was not even sure why, but I was having a hard time believing that God would really bring me to the place that I know He so clearly called me to, England.

I just couldn’t shake the feeling that while God may come through in a big way for others (bringing others into a beautiful new way of living out their calling) that He would not do so with me.

In my head I knew that it did not make any sense that God would ignore me, that He would lead me all this way just to abandon me, yet that was how I was starting to feel, all the same.

Knowing that God is no respecter of persons, I turned to my friend and asked for prayer.

As she started to pray she immediately asked God to feel that hole inside me that caused me to feel less than, not enough. She prayed protection over my mind and that peace would flood my heart.

It hit home immediately.

I realized that I had never quite been able to shake the feeling that the great things that God had for me would never come to fruition because I was never quite good enough.

I immediately realized that was a lie, that I needed to stop living through how I felt and start living based on the truth of the Word.

The next morning I woke up to one thought in my head, “You are worth it.” It was somewhat surprised because I felt as if it was a word directly from God to me.

I questioned God asking, “Me?”

He immediately replied, “Yes you. You are worth so much to me that I sent my only son to die for you. You matter to me, you are my daughter and I love you so very, very much.”

Then I got it!

After all the years, struggles, pain, triumphs, disillusionments, a-ha moments, and hours delving into the word, I got it.

God loves me and has great future in store for ME.

Not because of what I have done or didn’t do but because He loves me.

There is a freedom in that.

There is a freedom in knowing that you are not God’s unloved step-child that just barely made it into the family, the one that forced to live in the attic and given a list of “must do” chores that never get done.

No I am an equal Child of God that has been redeemed by His love and mercy.

So are you.

What a world it would be if we could all just throw off our shackles of feeling not enough and walk in the freedom of God’s love.

Knowing that God wants to lead us and guide us into the perfect future that He has for us because He wills it, not because we earn it.

Let us wake every morning and looking in the mirror shout (like Wallace) “Freedom!” and then walk in it.

Let us go for all that God has for us, and not allow the enemy a foothold in the door to our future.

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