I don’t know about you, but for me falling in to doubt is just too easy sometimes.
The other day I ran into a friend who asked me what was new in the England department (for those reading this for the first time, I have openly declared that God has called me to England and I believe it will be this summer). I honestly had nothing new to tell her, no job offers, no place to live, no…nothing! In fact at this point really have nothing solid, “except” what God had spoken to me. She then said excitedly, something that scared me to my core “Well we are all watching you. We can’t wait to see how this unfolds.” I was like “No pressure right?” and then laughed.
But then I was struck with a thought. Or a million of them. Oh my gosh people are watching me! What if I am wrong? How stupid I will look in front of them (and let me just say for a girl who grew up being picked on in school, that is a horrifying thought). What if I just conjured this whole thing up? What if I get to August and have nowhere to live (I gave my landlord notice)? What it I am a bad example to my children, friends, and extended family of how to follow God? What if? What if? What if?
Those what if’s can cause me to go from “doing great” to “want to pull the covers over my head and crawl under the bed” in two seconds flat.
Yet there is a reason that I do not run and hide. There is a reason that I do not allow all the negative questions to drive me into a comatose state. And that reason is Jesus! He says to me
I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Then I am reminded that He is not going to set me up for failure. He is not going to lead me to my doom. God has a great plan for my life!!!
Sure I may not see anything happening yet, and sure I may not have anything tangible to hold on to yet…but I have my faith!
Martin Luther King once said “Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.”So I have taken the first step…I got the passports for my children and I took the second, I gave notice that I was moving this summer. I took the third, I fasted 45 days. And now I have my foot planted on step number four waiting to lift off.
Do I know when I will get my next step? No. But I do know that I will get the next one because God’s “good plans” that He has for me, mean that good things are in store.
Do I know how many steps there are? No. But I do know that the Awesome God who designed my staircase has made just the right number of them.
And Do I even know where it will lead me? Yes. It will lead to my future, where Gods good plans for my life will be realized.
So I will keep stepping, and believing, and will be excited to watch it all unfold.
What about you? What staircase are you presently on? What at step? I would love to hear about it (Hint, Hint, leave a comment).
I just believe that God would want me to encourage you to believe that His plans for you are more than you can imagine. That you do not have to have it all figured out. That your future is safe in His hands.
So if He is currently telling you to take a step of faith that you are afraid of, remember that it will not end in your destruction as He always has plans for your welfare not for evil to befall you.
He is so very, very good.
He loves you so very much.
Take the step.
 The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (Wheaton: Standard Bible Society, 2001), Jeremiah 29:11.