Why else are we here

Posted May 22, 2014

Filed under About Me, Thoughts on Trusting God

So i am not going to lie, I am a person who likes my bubble space. I am an introvert by nature and love that I have my own room that I can go to relax in.

Last night though, I did not have it. Because last night I shared my room with a friend who needed to get away from a rough situation.

This morning it hit me that this is what it is all about.

Life is not about making sure that you get your bubble space, life is about reaching out, being the hands and feet of Christ in a fallen world.

I love my sweet friend, and I hurt for what she is going through. I also know that I am not the only one who is hurting for her. God is too.

God brought us together for many reasons and this is one of them.

I am trusting God to get me to the land He called me to, not because I have physical proof that He will do so, but because I know that God loves us so much that He places us exactly where we need to be in order to reach those who need to hear his heart for them.

In a world that screams “It’s all about me” I am realizing that the truth is “It’s all about Him and his plans for me to reach out to others.”

So whether my friend stays another night, or fifty more, I am in. And I am excited to share the love of Christ with her, to be her soft spot to land in a harsh world.

There are many more that need the same, my prayer is that God will reveal one (or many) to you today.

As we reach out and lift others up, we will soon realize that God is lifting us up as well.

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What it’s not about

Posted May 20, 2014

Filed under About Me, Thoughts on Trusting God

Although my ability to trust God with ordering the steps of my life, has come a long way from where it used to be, there is still (and I fear always will be) room for improvement.
Often times I realize that my impatience over seeing God work in my life stems from my distrust of His ability to work due to my own actions.
I start to wonder did I dot every “i” or cross every “t?” Did I do everything right in order for God to work in my life?
Then God taps me on the shoulder and says gently, “Child it is not about you. It is not about what you do.

Right or wrong your actions do not determine my ability to work in your life.

As long as you have a heart that is open to do my will, I will bring you to where you need to be.

Trust Me! Trust that I am forever with you and will not let you self-destruct. I AM all that you need. Lean into me.”

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God is Cool!

Posted May 9, 2014

Filed under About Me, England, Thoughts on Trusting God

God is cool!

He is a lot more than that, but He is also cool!!!

He always, always, always gives me what I need to keep going.

When God called me to England, I immediately began telling everyone because I am a follower of Jesus Christ and as John 10:27 says

My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me.

I knew, that I knew, that I knew that the Holy Spirit had called me.

Immediately I felt a deep longing for a place that I had never been.

I felt compelled to leave everything behind and go, for no other reason than because I knew God told me to, and that was enough.

At the time…for a while….as long as I stayed focused on God and not on the world.

But then life happened…pressures mounted.

Oh I can take the fact that 9 out of 10 people think I am crazy, I could take the fact that I had to leave a home I love and sell everything in it to go to a place I have never been (Actually I love adventure so that worked) in a short amount of time (August 1^st…that’s really close) but what I have the hardest time with is my Kids.

What is the hardest thing is my four kids (all grown, but the one who will come with me). I have some awesome kids, and as most mothers I would lay down my life for any of them in a heartbeat. But God is not asking me to lay down my life for them, but for Him.

Because I am his child, He understands my heart. He understands my getting sidetracked with sadness of leaving them and worries about how it will all work out, and He knows that I need encouragement to stay on track.

One of the ways that He is encouraged me is to guide me to Francis Chan, not in person but on video. I was encouraged as Francis spoke of what God was doing in his life, as he shared about living courageously with and for God.

It was exactly what I needed at the time to keep going.

That is why I think God is cool!

Just when I think I am the only one…when I think I am not strong enough for the load that I think I have to carry, God reminds me that I am not alone, and I am strong enough, stronger than I thing, because He is with me and is my strength.

So if you are feeling discouraged, or not up to the task that God has laid before you,

Lean into God.

Trust the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you into all that God has for you, and remember you are stronger than you realize because you have a very cool God who cares enough about you to give you what you need to keep going strong.

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Heart Check

Posted May 5, 2014

Filed under About Me, Thoughts on Trusting God, trusting God with out whole hearts

Trusting God to lead you sometimes means allowing Him to lead you into places that you don’t want to go but that are necessary for growth and preparation.
Yesterday I went through some hard things. No one was killed, or maimed, or hurt, but what did happen is that God allowed an area of my heart to be exposed that, if left to grow, would of taken my focus of serving and helping others in His name, and put squarely on pleasing myself.
I realize now that even a pencil dot of me wants recognition for serving in His name, it will be a pencil dot too much.
This is not about me, it’s about, has always been about Him. So I repent of my foolish pride, and I give all that I am, once again to God, knowing that God loves me, notices me, and that is enough.
I am not sure when that door to England will open.

Maybe it will be after some more heart checks concerning other matters.
But through it all I am trusting God that He would not lead me into anything, that He would not allow anything that would not be for my ultimate good.
If you are hurt or wounded make sure that you turn to God not away from Him.

What you have experienced may have just been a horrible act done to you, or a mistake, or even of your own doing, but God can use it to shape you and mold you…or maybe he just wants to hold and heal you.
Whatever the case…Keep turning to Him. Not only so that he may work through you, but so you may to be loved and restored, because He loves you, You are important to Him!!!! And so am I!!!!

Why I am willing to sell everything and move to another country when statistics say that I will return homeless in less than six months…

Posted May 4, 2014

Filed under About Me, song, Story

The short answer Jesus!

The long one is too long to tell in a blog post (even for me) but I will sum it all up by telling the following true story.

A few years ago when I was in the middle of a fourteen day fast, I was going through a rough patch and was feeling kind of unloved. So I decided to take a walk and listen to worship music.

When I started my walk there was a light wind, nothing much, I could barely feel it.

When I was almost home I said something like “God I know that you love me but I really just need a hug, couldn’t you just give me a hug.”

Right then the wind came crashing upon me from every side. I spread my arms open wide and God just hit me from the front, back, side, top, and bottom with powerful gusts of wind.

That in itself is a beautiful thing.

But what is really awesome is the fact that at the EXACT moment the first gust hit me, I was listening to these exact lyrics were playing in my ears

His love’s like a hurricane

I am the tree

Oh How He Love Us

Oh How He Loves us

That is why I am willing to risk everything, risk my future and my children’s

Because God is not distant!!!

God hears our prayers!!!

God loves us passionately!!!!

Because I have asked God to redirect my steps and He hasn’t, because God keeps opening doors, because God loves me, I know that I can trust Him.

I can trust him with my future and my children’s future.