Trusting God to lead you sometimes means allowing Him to lead you into places that you don’t want to go but that are necessary for growth and preparation.
Yesterday I went through some hard things. No one was killed, or maimed, or hurt, but what did happen is that God allowed an area of my heart to be exposed that, if left to grow, would of taken my focus of serving and helping others in His name, and put squarely on pleasing myself.
I realize now that even a pencil dot of me wants recognition for serving in His name, it will be a pencil dot too much.
This is not about me, it’s about, has always been about Him. So I repent of my foolish pride, and I give all that I am, once again to God, knowing that God loves me, notices me, and that is enough.
I am not sure when that door to England will open.

Maybe it will be after some more heart checks concerning other matters.
But through it all I am trusting God that He would not lead me into anything, that He  would not allow anything that would not be for my ultimate good.
If you are hurt or wounded make sure that you turn to God not away from Him.

What you have experienced may have just been a horrible act done to you, or a mistake, or even of your own doing, but God can use it to shape you and mold you…or maybe he just wants to hold and heal you.
Whatever the case…Keep turning to Him. Not only so that he may work through you, but so you may to be loved and restored, because He loves you, You are important to Him!!!! And so am I!!!!