And when you’re tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There’s freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go
So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your worlds not falling apart, its falling into place
I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held
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Casting Crowns……….Just be held
Trusting God to lead you sometimes means allowing Him to lead you into places that you don’t want to go but that are necessary for growth and preparation.
Yesterday I went through some hard things. No one was killed, or maimed, or hurt, but what did happen is that God allowed an area of my heart to be exposed that, if left to grow, would of taken my focus of serving and helping others in His name, and put squarely on pleasing myself.
I realize now that even a pencil dot of me wants recognition for serving in His name, it will be a pencil dot too much.
This is not about me, it’s about, has always been about Him. So I repent of my foolish pride, and I give all that I am, once again to God, knowing that God loves me, notices me, and that is enough.
I am not sure when that door to England will open.
Maybe it will be after some more heart checks concerning other matters.
But through it all I am trusting God that He would not lead me into anything, that He would not allow anything that would not be for my ultimate good.
If you are hurt or wounded make sure that you turn to God not away from Him.
What you have experienced may have just been a horrible act done to you, or a mistake, or even of your own doing, but God can use it to shape you and mold you…or maybe he just wants to hold and heal you.
Whatever the case…Keep turning to Him. Not only so that he may work through you, but so you may to be loved and restored, because He loves you, You are important to Him!!!! And so am I!!!!
The short answer Jesus!
The long one is too long to tell in a blog post (even for me) but I will sum it all up by telling the following true story.
A few years ago when I was in the middle of a fourteen day fast, I was going through a rough patch and was feeling kind of unloved. So I decided to take a walk and listen to worship music.
When I started my walk there was a light wind, nothing much, I could barely feel it.
When I was almost home I said something like “God I know that you love me but I really just need a hug, couldn’t you just give me a hug.”
Right then the wind came crashing upon me from every side. I spread my arms open wide and God just hit me from the front, back, side, top, and bottom with powerful gusts of wind.
That in itself is a beautiful thing.
But what is really awesome is the fact that at the EXACT moment the first gust hit me, I was listening to these exact lyrics were playing in my ears
His love’s like a hurricane
I am the tree
Oh How He Love Us
Oh How He Loves us
That is why I am willing to risk everything, risk my future and my children’s
Because God is not distant!!!
God hears our prayers!!!
God loves us passionately!!!!
Because I have asked God to redirect my steps and He hasn’t, because God keeps opening doors, because God loves me, I know that I can trust Him.
I can trust him with my future and my children’s future.
So can you!!!
Because He is no respecter of persons.
Believe Him to direct you steps, and then start stepping and you will be amazed at where you end up!!
I know I am!
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I Am Trusting God 