God is Cool!



God is cool!

He is a lot more than that, but He is also cool!!!

He always, always, always gives me what I need to keep going.

When God called me to England, I immediately began telling everyone because I am a follower of Jesus Christ and as John 10:27 says

My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me.

I knew, that I knew, that I knew that the Holy Spirit had called me.

Immediately I felt a deep longing for a place that I had never been.

I felt compelled to leave everything behind and go, for no other reason than because I knew God told me to, and that was enough.

At the time…for a while….as long as I stayed focused on God and not on the world.

But then life happened…pressures mounted.

Oh I can take the fact that 9 out of 10 people think I am crazy, I could take the fact that I had to leave a home I love and sell everything in it to go to a place I have never been (Actually I love adventure so that worked) in a short amount of time (August 1st…that’s really close) but what I have the hardest time with is my Kids.

What is the hardest thing is my four kids (all grown, but the one who will come with me). I have some awesome kids, and as most mothers I would lay down my life for any of them in a heartbeat. But God is not asking me to lay down my life for them, but for Him.

Because I am his child, He understands my heart. He understands my getting sidetracked with sadness of leaving them and worries about how it will all work out,  and He knows that I need encouragement to stay on track.

One of the ways that He is encouraged me is to guide me to Francis Chan, not in person but on video. I was encouraged as Francis spoke of what God was doing in his life, as he shared about living courageously with and for God.

It was exactly what I needed at the time to keep going.

That is why I think God is cool!

Just when I think I am the only one…when I think I am not strong enough for the load that I think I have to carry, God reminds me that I am not alone, and I am strong enough, stronger than I thing, because He is with me and is my strength.

So if you are feeling discouraged, or not up to the task that God has laid before you,

Lean into God.

 Trust the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you into all that God has for you, and remember you are stronger than you realize because you have a very cool God who cares enough about you to give you what you need to keep going strong.



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The letter, the word it said, and God


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What do you do when you believe that God has lead you to not only a dead end but what could be the start of what might just be your own end?

I was to come to face to face with that question, like so many of His followers have before.

I was so sure of it all this time. I was so sure that the job that appeared on my screen was exactly what God had for me.

Looking at the facts I knew that

  1. The job “appeared” out of nowhere just as my school website had.
  2. The job stirred my spirit and was at a church that I felt an instant sense of belonging.
  3. The job was in a Country where I clearly felt called to.
  4. The job also seemed a perfect fit for not only my gifting’s but for my son as well.


Talking with my pastor I discussed how very sure I was that the job application would finally lead for the first time to something that has dodged me all my life, success.


That I would finally be “picked” for something.


I, like so many others, have struggled in the past with a low sense of self worth, not feeling as if I would ever amount to much, because I wasn’t as good as others.


While God has healed most of that, a small part remains. A part that is the kid on the playground waiting to be picked for a team, and hoping that this time it will finally be different. That this time she won’t be picked last. This time she will have been chosen, she will have tasted what it means to have a small measure of success.


Looking back over my life I can say that there was really rarely ever a time where I have felt chosen. Where I have truly ever felt wanted.


And Yet God!!!


God chose me!!! He has not only chosen me but He has loved and lead me so well that when this job appeared, and my spirit was stirred felt as if it was a shoe in. I believed that God would not have lead me to believe that I would finally see success only to once again for the millionth time have my hopes dashed.


And yet a few days ago it came.


A letter all the way from that country I felt called to, all the way from that part of the country I felt connected to.


I was already tired (my kryptonite) after working all day so the thought that maybe I would finally taste success, that was almost too much to handle.


My hope were high as I tore open the envelope and pulled out the letter.


And unfortunately they were again dashed.


Inside the envelope I was formally told that I was “unsuccessful” they actually used that dreaded word. I could feel Satan laughing at me, jeering me saying, “Haha you actually thought that you would have success, that you would be picked! It is never going to happen.”

 I was hurt and went for a walk.

 God walked with me and reminded me of some things that my daughter echoed when I returned.

 God picked me and that was enough.

  1. I was lead here by God, just as the Israelites were led to the edge of the Red Sea. I should be expectantly waiting for Gods goodness, just as they should have been. Why? Because we have seen His working in our lives before, we have seen His loving kindness as He has lead us here. We know that He is faithful, so why believe that we are doomed?
  2. If you want a testimony you have to be tested!

So I am still at the edge of the sea, waiting on God.

Yet even though I have no idea why God lead me all this way, I have to believe that it was not for nothing.

I have seen His love and caring for me and my children far too many times to doubt that His intentions…no that His plan for my life, is anything but the best,

So it doesn’t matter that it looks like there is no job for me in England, it does not matter that I have been called unsuccessful in the past!

I am know that God will come through, that He hears my prayers for guidance and that He will make a way to where He wants me to be.

Don’t let the little things, or the big things stop you!!!

If you believe that He has lead you to a place where you need a miracle to happen, then expect to see the miracle. Trust God!!!!

In the end He will get you to where you and I need to be.


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