As I am going through this season of testing, one of the things that happened to me is I soon became unable to think clearly. Everything was on my mind all of the time.
My ability to trust God, left me as I tried to figure out how it would all work out.
And then I had a friend who (bless her) prayed against confused thinking.
I didn’t notice for about 20 minutes but I was able to be positive again and think clearly….it was wonderful!!
I believe that the enemy comes against our thinking because if we can’t think straight we cant do all that God is calling us to do.
I was reminded that I need to
If you are struggling to think straight, know that you are under attack. I encourage you to pray with me.
Father God,
I come to you and ask for you to give me clear thinking.
Help me to separate the truth of what you are calling me to do from the lies of the enemy.
Do not allow the enemy to cloud my thinking.
Help me to stay close to you and to easily recognize your voice.
Cast all negative thinking from me, as I know it is not from you.
Help we to remember to examine my thinking often, so as to be able to cast any away that not of you.
In the name of Jesus Christ I pray. Amen
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Every day I wrestle with the voices
That keep telling me I’m not right
But that’s alright
‘Cause I hear a voice and He calls me redeemed
When others say I’ll never be enough
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world
I am learning to run freely
Understanding just how He sees me
And it makes me love Him more and more
He’s greater, He’s greater
Lyrics from “Greater” by MercyMe
I have been struggling lately.
God asked me to step off the boat and follow Him.
In the beginning it was easy. I kept my eyes on Jesus, jumped out of the boat with Joy and delight and hopped and skipped with glee on my way to meet Him.
But somehow, the farther from shore I got, the harder it got for me to skip and jump.
I soon slowed to a walk because, though, I was getting closer to Jesus I was getting farther from the land that “seemed” to be so solid and dependable.
The farther out I got not only did I start to look around me and realize that the water was unsure, the water was not solid, but I started looking inward and thought that I looked to be the ultimate fool to be standing on it.
The multiple rejections I faced made me question myself.
“Who are you to believe that God would use you that way?” I asked myself.
“Look at you. You are not rich or smart, married, the mother of perfect children, or even skinny. Your have not led a charmed life, only people who do get to be in the frontlines for God.”
My walk turned to a crawl as I focused less and less on Jesus and more and more on myself.
The more I allowed myself to sink in the mire of self-doubt, and self –pity, the more that my I started to sink into the water I should have been dancing on.
Finally when I was in over my head, I turned to Jesus and He pulled me out.
He showed me that yes, I have been rejected, but no more than He.
That yes I have been bruised and battered, but no more than He.
That though the world may forsake me that He was with me and that was enough.
I talked with some friends yesterday who helped me to remember that there is a purpose in all of this.
That there are others experiencing so much more pain and brokenness.
People who need to hear His voice, feel His love, and experience the healing only He can bring.
I know that all of this has been for a reason. God has a purpose in this.
I Love God with all of my Heart, and I will continue to keep my eyes on him and allow him to lead me to scary places because I realized that nothing, and I mean nothing, is as solid and sure as He is.
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Father God
I realize that I haven’t done everything right, i realize that I have wasted time trying to do it my own way.
All you have ever wanted from me is my trust, and yet I struggle.
I think about the people that have let me down, and I have projected those fears on you.
As a result I have a hard time believing that You forever have the best of intentions for me.
That I can trust You fully and completely to lead and guide me.
But when I think of how loving, kind, and merciful that you have been to me, I cannot help but want to be one who walks closely with you, fully trusting you to lead me where You want me to be.
So change my heart God, make me into the fiercely loyal child that you want me to be.
Remind me that this life is not my own.
Help me to daily follow your lead, as I daily choose to lay it all down at the foot of the Cross.
I make a choice to trust you fully for my future,
And the future of those I love.
I lay all of my fears, worries, struggles, and doubts down.
And I say with all my heart
You lead, Ill follow.
In Jesus Name I pray.
Amen!
I Am Trusting God 