Trust

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. – Jesus (John 14:1 NIV)

How you can make sure you will be ok

Why “I Am” is better than “I”

Posted May 29, 2014

Filed under About Me, Bible Verse, England, Picture, song, Thoughts on Trusting God

“But when he saw the wind boisterous,

he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying,

Lord, save me.” – Matthew 14:30

Went to the vet yesterday. Things were going well until they told me that the rabies vaccine that the cats needed has been recalled and they are not sure when they are going to get it in again.

This is the same vaccine that they need at least 21 days before travel, there is less then 2 months before I am supposed to leave my home (I gave the landlord notice as per Gods leading), so this makes things a little bit stressful (if I choose not to give it all to God).

I do not currently believe that(in the natural) between kids, cats, home, and a million other things, that really anymore could be added to my plate without it shattering from the weight of it all.

But then there is God!

This morning I woke to the following lyrics playing in my head:

You’re the one who conquers giants

You’re the one who calls out kings

You shut the mouths of lions

You tell the dead to breathe

You’re the one who walks through fire

You take the orphan’s hand

You are the one Messiah

You are I AM

Hallelujah you live in me

Hallelujah you live in Me

I couldn’t help but smile.

I am such a human.

I start to get so sidetracked and wonder how “I” am supposed to do it all. How “I” am supposed to fit the pieces together.

God is probably shaking His head saying, “Hello, remember me? I AM in control, I AM the answer to all the questions, I AM able to work it all out, I AM enough!”

So while I like to be in control, I see a beauty in the chaos.

Because when all is said and done it will be God who gets the credit.

Miracles have a way of doing that.

Lyrics written by MercyMe from the album The Hurt & The Healer

Why you need to hold on, without letting go

Posted May 25, 2014

Filed under About Me, Bible Verse, Thoughts on Trusting God

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,

because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

(James 1:2-3)

Recently I was reminded of the night that my husband died. As I have mentioned before and in a nutshell, the story is they (the doctors) told me that Allan was dying a 6 p.m. and God told me to stay at the hospital until 6 a.m.

Twice during that night I wanted to leave, twice God had someone tell me not to.

About 15 minutes to 6 unknown nurses came in and told me to leave,I left and God told me to “Get back in there” because it was almost six.

Right before six I started to sing a song that was on my mind all night but I hadn’t been able to remember the words to.

This time I remembered all the words and as I sang the last word I saw Allan’s spirit leave his body.

I did not think that was possible. But it was.

God knew it was and He wanted me to see it.

If I would of left early I would of missed it,

God knew that,

So even though I was worn, and weary.

Even though I did not see the point of hanging in there, even though I just wanted to leave, go home, and collapse in a heap on my bed and just shut out the reality of what was happening,

When the long hours of the night, seemed to almost close their hands around my neck and squeeze out my very last breath,

God whispered “Hang on for just a bit longer.” and he gave me the strength to do it.

That was the last time a major change happened in my life.

I am now in a “long night” again.

I am in a tunnel, with my old life on one end and my new life on another.

I am tired and weary but I hear God whisper, “hold on just a bit longer and you sill see something amazing.”

And so I will hold on.

Because I believe Him.

I trust Him.

And I love Him.

God has never let me down before.

Are you going through a hard season, where the night has lasted far to long?