Why you need to hold on, without letting go

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,

because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

(James 1:2-3)

Recently I was reminded of the night that my husband died. As I have mentioned before and in a nutshell, the story is they (the doctors) told me that Allan was dying a 6 p.m. and God told me to stay at the hospital until 6 a.m.

Twice during that night I wanted to leave, twice God had someone tell me not to.

About 15 minutes to 6 unknown nurses came in and told me to leave,I left and God told me to “Get back in there” because it was almost six.

Right before six I started to sing a song that was on my mind all night but I hadn’t been able to remember the words to.

This time I remembered all the words and as I sang the last word I saw Allan’s spirit leave his body.

I did not think that was possible. But it was.

God knew it was and He wanted me to see it.

If I would of left early I would of missed it,

God knew that,

So even though I was worn, and weary.

Even though I did not see the point of hanging in there, even though I just wanted to leave, go home, and collapse in a heap on my bed and just shut out the reality of what was happening,

When the long hours of the night, seemed to almost close their hands around my neck and squeeze out my very last breath,

God whispered “Hang on for just a bit longer.” and he gave me the strength to do it.

That was the last time a major change happened in my life.

I am now in a “long night” again.

I am in a tunnel, with my old life on one end and my new life on another.

I am tired and weary but I hear God whisper, “hold on just a bit longer and you sill see something amazing.”

And so I will hold on.

Because I believe Him.

I trust Him.

And I love Him.

God has never let me down before.

Are you going through a hard season, where the night has lasted far to long?