Do You remember me? The Apple of Your eye?
Or at least that is what I thought I was…once upon a time.
It does not seem that long ago when my footing was sure and steady
When I felt closer to You than my own breath.
But now I live in a “time of testing”
At least that is what I hope it is
And my footing does not feel so sure anymore
And You feel farther than the farthest star
Worn and battle-scared, my biggest wounds
Are those that I inflict upon myself
The worry comes as hard and fast as the questions
What will become of me and mine?
Why is this happening?
What have I done to deserve this?
Your back is all I see
And Your silence is all I hear
I wonder when did I turn from the apple of Your eye
To the child who slipped in the back door unwanted and ignored
And then I remember
This is not about me
That is doesn’t matter how I feel
Because this about what I know
So while i feel as if my worst fears will become a reality
I know that You have always been faithful to save
While feel as if just my back will break from the pressure
I know that You will not give me more than I can handle without You
While I feel so very very alone
I know that You will never leave me
While I feel as if You have brought me all this way for nothing
I know that You are faithful to complete what You started
So I will keep fight this Battle of the Mind
In Your name I will charge that hill
I love You so very much
Father, Savior, Friend
I know that these chains will soon fall off and
Things will be restored and made right
And You will free me to go and help others
who might have forgotten or never knew
That they, are loved, and treasured,
that You long to make them whole
That You made a way for them to come to You
Through Your Son Jesus
That is does not matter what they have done
or how they feel, You love them
That they, like me, always will be
The apple of you eye
Thank you Father for loving me
Signed your Beloved Daughter