I am just beginning to realize that having faith in God is not about waiting for Him to do the next great thing in my life, but in knowing that whatever He does in my life will be the Best thing!
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Trusting God in the dark
Everything is falling apart.
Nothing is working out like I thought it would.
I thought that by now I would not only have received word that I was to go to England, but also that my kids would all have everything set in stone as well.
None of that is the case.
I am tired, worn to the core.
Yet I hold on to hope.
It may be false hope and I may look the fool.
But I believe that God called me here.
I believe that even though it is dark now, so very dark, that at just the right moment, at His appointed time,
God will shine His light.
And even if things don’t work out as I thought they would God will open a new path.
While I believe that God is under no obligation to do anything for me, or explain anything to me, I believe that because He loves us each in a personal way.
I believe that God is not like some dictator type parent who barks orders and expects us to never think but always act.
This is not the God that I have always know.
I have know a God who deeply loves me.
I have known a father, that didn’t not judge me by my past but who saw me in light of my future,
I have known a Father who had time after time declared His love for me through His word, through a song, or through one of the million “coincidences” that have happened to me since I have believed.
God is not a God of disorder (14:33) and he would not ask me to trust Him and then forget all about me, or ignore me.
He has a plan and because He is good, He plans are always good.
Jeremiah 29:11 tells me that
I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
So while right now it LOOKS like God has abandoned me, that my future is about as bright as a mining shaft, I am holding and and waiting in Hope. He has never let me down yet and I know that He will make a way.
And at just the rght moment, though it is dark, though it is cold and wet and the rain is pouring down.
He ill turn on the light, and lead the way home.
Because He loves me!
He love you too!!
Hold on to hope!!!
Hold on to Jesus!!
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A Prayer of Surrender
Father God
I realize that I haven’t done everything right, i realize that I have wasted time trying to do it my own way.
All you have ever wanted from me is my trust, and yet I struggle.
I think about the people that have let me down, and I have projected those fears on you.
As a result I have a hard time believing that You forever have the best of intentions for me.
That I can trust You fully and completely to lead and guide me.
But when I think of how loving, kind, and merciful that you have been to me, I cannot help but want to be one who walks closely with you, fully trusting you to lead me where You want me to be.
So change my heart God, make me into the fiercely loyal child that you want me to be.
Remind me that this life is not my own.
Help me to daily follow your lead, as I daily choose to lay it all down at the foot of the Cross.
I make a choice to trust you fully for my future,
And the future of those I love.
I lay all of my fears, worries, struggles, and doubts down.
And I say with all my heart
You lead, Ill follow.
In Jesus Name I pray.
Amen!
Miracles are hard to come by these days
I woke up to the following Lyrics playing in my head. Interesting because I am in need of a miracle.
It is a month till I need to move, the door to England is firmly shut and I have no place to move to here either.
I have to believe that God did not lead me here for nothing.
That a miracle is about to happen.
Sadly I am going apartment hunting down the street on Monday.
Please pray for His perfect will to be done!
It is my deepest desire to show others what can happen if we just trust God to lead us.
I want God to reach hearts through my obedience.
It looks bad but it is not over yet,
Love is a miracle
It’s a miracle if you can find it
And miracles are hard to come by these days (these days)
But the sweet Lord Jesus, he’s a miracle man
He’s got holes in His feet, in His side, in His hands
And if you ask for love, love pours through them
Like a ray of light, like a raging blaze
We didn’t know what love was ’til he came
And He gave love a face and He gave love a name
And He gave love away like the sky gives the rain and sun
We were looking for heroes, He came looking for the lost
We were searching for glory, and He showed us a cross
Now we know what love is ’cause He loves us
All the way to kingdom come (All the way)
All the way to kingdom come by Rich Mullins
It is never over with God
Long story short. My husband passed away when my daughter was only eleven. They were very close and she was acting out a lot by age 14.
I got to a point where I didn’t know what to do.
I prayed to God and He said, “Don’t discipline her. Just love Her.”
I was more that a little surprised and replied, “God but have you seen her behavior. This girl needs discipline.
Again He said, “Don’t discipline her. Just love her.”
So I listened to Him.
It was not easy, but I stopped trying to change her behavior and focused on being kind to her.
That gave room for God to get a hold of her.
He lead and guided her in ways I could not. It was not long before she gave her life to Jesus and started making positive changes.
Long story short, the kid who at one time in middle school spent weeks in the discipline office, spent the last year as Student Body President of her school. She was chosen by the Senior class to be the speaker at graduation, and is going on to collage to study law in hopes of being a Lawyer.
When God asks you to trust him, when you know it is God, then do it.
Do what He asks even if it is hard or doesn’t make sense.
He knows what He is doing!!!
I Am Trusting God 