When life has hit hard
and the words are not there to pray
Just say Jesus
He will know the way
Category Archives: Thoughts on Trusting God
Sea Legs
Every day I wrestle with the voices
That keep telling me I’m not right
But that’s alright
‘Cause I hear a voice and He calls me redeemed
When others say I’ll never be enough
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world
I am learning to run freely
Understanding just how He sees me
And it makes me love Him more and more
He’s greater, He’s greater
Lyrics from “Greater” by MercyMe
I have been struggling lately.
God asked me to step off the boat and follow Him.
In the beginning it was easy. I kept my eyes on Jesus, jumped out of the boat with Joy and delight and hopped and skipped with glee on my way to meet Him.
But somehow, the farther from shore I got, the harder it got for me to skip and jump.
I soon slowed to a walk because, though, I was getting closer to Jesus I was getting farther from the land that “seemed” to be so solid and dependable.
The farther out I got not only did I start to look around me and realize that the water was unsure, the water was not solid, but I started looking inward and thought that I looked to be the ultimate fool to be standing on it.
The multiple rejections I faced made me question myself.
“Who are you to believe that God would use you that way?” I asked myself.
“Look at you. You are not rich or smart, married, the mother of perfect children, or even skinny. Your have not led a charmed life, only people who do get to be in the frontlines for God.”
My walk turned to a crawl as I focused less and less on Jesus and more and more on myself.
The more I allowed myself to sink in the mire of self-doubt, and self –pity, the more that my I started to sink into the water I should have been dancing on.
Finally when I was in over my head, I turned to Jesus and He pulled me out.
He showed me that yes, I have been rejected, but no more than He.
That yes I have been bruised and battered, but no more than He.
That though the world may forsake me that He was with me and that was enough.
I talked with some friends yesterday who helped me to remember that there is a purpose in all of this.
That there are others experiencing so much more pain and brokenness.
People who need to hear His voice, feel His love, and experience the healing only He can bring.
I know that all of this has been for a reason. God has a purpose in this.
I Love God with all of my Heart, and I will continue to keep my eyes on him and allow him to lead me to scary places because I realized that nothing, and I mean nothing, is as solid and sure as He is.
Photo © cityanimal – Fotolia.com
What Faith is
I am just beginning to realize that having faith in God is not about waiting for Him to do the next great thing in my life, but in knowing that whatever He does in my life will be the Best thing!
Trusting God in the dark
Everything is falling apart.
Nothing is working out like I thought it would.
I thought that by now I would not only have received word that I was to go to England, but also that my kids would all have everything set in stone as well.
None of that is the case.
I am tired, worn to the core.
Yet I hold on to hope.
It may be false hope and I may look the fool.
But I believe that God called me here.
I believe that even though it is dark now, so very dark, that at just the right moment, at His appointed time,
God will shine His light.
And even if things don’t work out as I thought they would God will open a new path.
While I believe that God is under no obligation to do anything for me, or explain anything to me, I believe that because He loves us each in a personal way.
I believe that God is not like some dictator type parent who barks orders and expects us to never think but always act.
This is not the God that I have always know.
I have know a God who deeply loves me.
I have known a father, that didn’t not judge me by my past but who saw me in light of my future,
I have known a Father who had time after time declared His love for me through His word, through a song, or through one of the million “coincidences” that have happened to me since I have believed.
God is not a God of disorder (14:33) and he would not ask me to trust Him and then forget all about me, or ignore me.
He has a plan and because He is good, He plans are always good.
Jeremiah 29:11 tells me that
I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
So while right now it LOOKS like God has abandoned me, that my future is about as bright as a mining shaft, I am holding and and waiting in Hope. He has never let me down yet and I know that He will make a way.
And at just the rght moment, though it is dark, though it is cold and wet and the rain is pouring down.
He ill turn on the light, and lead the way home.
Because He loves me!
He love you too!!
Hold on to hope!!!
Hold on to Jesus!!
Photo © Helder Sousa – Fotolia.com
The fight of faith
Have you ever been at an apparent dead end with God?
When it seems like He has lead you to a place that was dead, lifeless, and from which there was no going backwards, forwards, or even sideways?
When bad news is piled upon bad news and you feel alone, worn, tired to the bone?
I realize that there is a lot that I do not know, yet I am convinced that that God would never lead us to a place where there was no way out, because God is our way out.
He is in control, even when everything seems out of control.
I love the lyrics to this song by Aaron Shust
My hope is in You, Lord, all the day long
I won’t be shaken by drought or storm
My hope is in You, Lord
All the day long I won’t be shaken by drought or storm
The dead end is where the battle is won, the dry desert is where the war is won or lost.
We wage war, not by grabbing a gun and attacking a physical enemy, but by falling to our knees and praying to God that He would deliver us from the unseen one.
If you are weary, stop trying to fight this battle along.
Place your hope in the Lord.
Turn to Him not just once but daily, hourly, or minute by minute, as the case may be.
Keep fighting by allowing God to fight for you, and you will soon see the light at the end of the tunnel.
If you are reading this I believe that God is saying to you, “Keep Going! Don’t quit. You are almost there. Hold on to me and be amazed at where I will lead you.”
Photo = © kukumalu – Fotolia.com
I Am Trusting God 