Why you need to hold on, without letting go

Posted May 25, 2014

Filed under About Me, Bible Verse, Thoughts on Trusting God

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,

because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

(James 1:2-3)

Recently I was reminded of the night that my husband died. As I have mentioned before and in a nutshell, the story is they (the doctors) told me that Allan was dying a 6 p.m. and God told me to stay at the hospital until 6 a.m.

Twice during that night I wanted to leave, twice God had someone tell me not to.

About 15 minutes to 6 unknown nurses came in and told me to leave,I left and God told me to “Get back in there” because it was almost six.

Right before six I started to sing a song that was on my mind all night but I hadn’t been able to remember the words to.

This time I remembered all the words and as I sang the last word I saw Allan’s spirit leave his body.

I did not think that was possible. But it was.

God knew it was and He wanted me to see it.

If I would of left early I would of missed it,

God knew that,

So even though I was worn, and weary.

Even though I did not see the point of hanging in there, even though I just wanted to leave, go home, and collapse in a heap on my bed and just shut out the reality of what was happening,

When the long hours of the night, seemed to almost close their hands around my neck and squeeze out my very last breath,

God whispered “Hang on for just a bit longer.” and he gave me the strength to do it.

That was the last time a major change happened in my life.

I am now in a “long night” again.

I am in a tunnel, with my old life on one end and my new life on another.

I am tired and weary but I hear God whisper, “hold on just a bit longer and you sill see something amazing.”

And so I will hold on.

Because I believe Him.

I trust Him.

And I love Him.

God has never let me down before.

Are you going through a hard season, where the night has lasted far to long?

Keep a hold of God and His promises to you.

And be encouraged, that dawn is coming, and it is going to be a beautiful thing to behold!

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Why else are we here

Posted May 22, 2014

Filed under About Me, Thoughts on Trusting God

So i am not going to lie, I am a person who likes my bubble space. I am an introvert by nature and love that I have my own room that I can go to relax in.

Last night though, I did not have it. Because last night I shared my room with a friend who needed to get away from a rough situation.

This morning it hit me that this is what it is all about.

Life is not about making sure that you get your bubble space, life is about reaching out, being the hands and feet of Christ in a fallen world.

I love my sweet friend, and I hurt for what she is going through. I also know that I am not the only one who is hurting for her. God is too.

God brought us together for many reasons and this is one of them.

I am trusting God to get me to the land He called me to, not because I have physical proof that He will do so, but because I know that God loves us so much that He places us exactly where we need to be in order to reach those who need to hear his heart for them.

In a world that screams “It’s all about me” I am realizing that the truth is “It’s all about Him and his plans for me to reach out to others.”

So whether my friend stays another night, or fifty more, I am in. And I am excited to share the love of Christ with her, to be her soft spot to land in a harsh world.

There are many more that need the same, my prayer is that God will reveal one (or many) to you today.

As we reach out and lift others up, we will soon realize that God is lifting us up as well.

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Raising my flag

Posted May 21, 2014

Filed under Thoughts on Trusting God

Long ago I gave God permission to wake me with songs, this stopped Satan from filling my thoughts with negativity every morning.

In the beginning I was just happy wake up and start the day out on the right foot. I did not pay much attention to what the song was.

But slowly and surely God started to focus my attention on what I was hearing. And nine times out of ten, what I heard corresponded to what happened during my day, or what God wanted to happen during my day.

This morning the lyrics

We raise our white flags

We surrender

All to you

were looping over and over in my mind before I even opened my eyes.

And I realized something. While I do trust God, while I do believe in His ability to lead me, I have never fully surrendered to him in the morning, allowing Him to fully lead and guide me in everything I do throughout the day.

It looks like this will be the day that I do so. Join me?

Father God I am fully surrendering to you this day and every day. Lead and guide me so that I may walk in your perfect will. May I be able to look back on each day from here on out and say alongside David, “This is the day the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it.”

Lyrics = Chris Tomlin

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What it’s not about

Posted May 20, 2014

Filed under About Me, Thoughts on Trusting God

Although my ability to trust God with ordering the steps of my life, has come a long way from where it used to be, there is still (and I fear always will be) room for improvement.
Often times I realize that my impatience over seeing God work in my life stems from my distrust of His ability to work due to my own actions.
I start to wonder did I dot every “i” or cross every “t?” Did I do everything right in order for God to work in my life?
Then God taps me on the shoulder and says gently, “Child it is not about you. It is not about what you do.

Right or wrong your actions do not determine my ability to work in your life.

As long as you have a heart that is open to do my will, I will bring you to where you need to be.

Trust Me! Trust that I am forever with you and will not let you self-destruct. I AM all that you need. Lean into me.”

When Jesus start out by saying “Truly” he is saying….

Posted May 15, 2014

Filed under Bible Verse, Thoughts on Trusting God

Don’t you just love when you are reading the bible and God illuminates something in a way that is just so darn real.

Take for example Mark 10:15

“Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it.”” (Mark 10:15, ESV)

Did you catch that?

Jesus started off by saying, “Truly I say to you.”

I saw that and I automatically pictured Jesus saying, “So look guys, before you hear the rest of what I am going to say you have to stop a second and think about this….what I am about to say it not a lie, a suggestion, or my imagination. What I am about to say is something that you really can rely on, trust in, with all that you are…honest!”

So first He says, “Trust me”…then the rest of it basically tells us how to trust Him. We are to come to Him like children.

The average child does not spend the day trying to figure out how to make things happen, and the night worrying about whether or not it will happen.

The average child is not on medication to sleep, because their brain is so used to fretting that it cannot shut off.

No the average child is not mentally drained all the time.

And because they are not so wound up, and exhausted with worry over what will come next, they follow where they are led.

We are called to be like them.

The Bible says

“The LORD will continually lead you; he will feed you even in parched regions. He will give of you renewed strength, and you will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring that continually produces water.” (Isaiah 58:11, NET)

God said it so we can trust it, because we can trust Him.

But we will never allow Him to lead us if we don’t trust Him enough to come to Him like a Child.

Rest in God! Trust Him to lead you to where you need to go and do what you are called to do.

Stop trying to figure out something that was never your responsibility.

Truly I say to you, trust God! You will not be put to shame for He is trust worthy!!