God showed his love by doing this cool thing

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One thing about God that I really love is the way is the way that He just totally gets us. All of us, wholly and completely.

It was the first Christmas without my husband. The first time the five of us would wake up early and go downstairs and sit around the tree while as presents were handed out. Five us, not six.

That year I must admit I went a little overboard on the gifts, as if I was subconsciously trying to make up for the loss of their father (and my husband) with stuff. Of course it didn’t work, but they did get sidetracked a bit.

Although I love giving better than receiving, the fact that Allan was gone meant that there would not be a gift for me under the tree. The gift’s absence just made the echo of his absence that much larger.

Actually, for weeks before it came,  I was dreading Christmas.

God knew it.

God got the hurt that I was feeling over the thought of that Christmas morning.

And He planned ahead so that I would not have to feel the sting.

Eight months before Allan’s passing God put on my heart to contact a ministry for prayer concerning the near death of my daughter.

When Allan died, God once again told me to email the ministry for prayer.

This is a ministry that I think is beautiful and wonderful, but that I would have never contacted without God’s urging as I am not naturally one that wants to reach out for help.

The ministry asked for my address, so that they might send me something special. That was in April and months later I never heard from them so I assumed they had forgotten about me.

 Flash forward to a few days before Christmas the mail came and I was surprised to find that I had received a very heavy box. I think it had a return address so I might have known the sender, but I remember thinking, “what in the world?”

It was close to Christmas so I thought I might just as well wait to open the box at Christmas.

When I did, I cried because I felt so very, very loved by God.

The box was so heavy because it was packed to the brim with one gift after another.

Things like a mug, a book and lotion…all things that Allan might of picked up for me.

The box not only blessed me with some pretty nice things, not only took some of the sting of the first Christmas without my husband away, but more importantly the box showed me that God got me! That God provides, and the God loves me so much that He prompted me to reach out years earlier knowing that the end result would be what I needed to get through a difficult day.

God can be trusted Always!!!

If  He is asking you to do something out of the ordinary, if you have prayed about it and know that it is Him, step out and follow His lead.

You can trust that He is leading you to where you need to be. Because He not only made you, He gets you!

 

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How trusting God caused my world to come crashing in

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This the update to my “A Christmas Miracle” blog post. For those that did not read it…basically God led me to have nothing prepared for Christmas for my family.

And to spend my money on other (needed) things and to trust Him to make it right.

Because I have four children (who are not so little anymore but still live at home), and because those children are used to getting spoiled at Christmas (even when I cannot afford it), this caused me great anxiety.

Every time I thought of how (potentially) my last Christmas with my children all under one roof would be an empty one, I began to feel like my world was crashing in around me.

But Faith

Yet I kept coming back to faith…simple, uncomplicated faith!

How could I trust Jesus to “save” me when I refused to trust Him to feed me. How could I trust him for all eternity when I could not trust him for one Christmas?

On my own I was shaky so I had to get back to solid ground.

I got out my Bible and read about how

The Scripture says, No man who believes in Him

[who adheres to, relies on, and trusts in Him]

will [ever] be put to shame or be disappointed.

(Romans 10:11 Amplified version).

I thought of all the people watching how all this “trusting God” business is going to play out… I realized that trusting God for Christmas is just a trial run for England and the rest of my future.

So I just allowed Him  the space He needed to show His goodness.

Any boy did He ever!

The Result

In the interest of brevity (something I am told is important in a blog post, and is something I am not very good at) I will just say that not only did God provide for every need we had (food, drink, etc) but He also took the focus off of the things and put it on our time together (not to mention Him).

As a result I spent two solid days hanging out with my family and talking and laughing…

We also went bowling…yes bowling. We are not big bowlers but we went on Christmas eve…at God’s leading…so much fun! And so many beautiful moments…like when I watched one child help another…so cool.

The Topper

And to top it off, God made sure there was a present for each of us under the tree…they were beyond awesome…mine made me cry because it is something I have wanted for a very long time.

There was a defining moment when we watched something on tv and one of the main characters said something like “people don’t often realize when they are living them, that one day these will be the moments that they wish they could re-live .”

Then it hit me

What gift God gave to me.

The Gift

The gift of foresight. How being able to drink in every second and really live in the moment with my beloved family.

In the hustle and bustle of Christmas, and daily living,  so many great moments often go unnoticed.  This gift of clarity has been a wake up call to me. I pray that I steward this gift well.

One Last Thing

He showed me that just as a bowling pins scatter, they are always made straight and set upright in the end…just like those who trust in Him.

Is your world crashing in around you? Trust in Gods good plan for your life and you will not be put to shame.

 

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Christmas Miracle

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This Christmas I have been led by God to forgo any presents for my children in lieu of putting the money towards time spent with them..

I have never done this before. Presents have always been the focus on Christmas when they really should not of been.

I sensed that God wanted to do something more, something much more amazing this year.

I thought it would work out great. That all things would fall into place.

But although none of my grown and nearly grown children care about the presents, they all have very different ideas of what they want to do on my tiny budget.

I felt led to share this (and the results) because I am Trusting God to somehow make a way in all this.

I am trusting God to bring me a miracle this Christmas.

To bring me and my family peace and joy.

His speciality.

P.s. Prayers Welcome:)

And Merry Christmas

UPDATE

I realize now that I miscalculated…we have ZERO money for Christmas, but I know this is just an opportunity to show how faithful God is…He has NEVER let me down before. Christmas will look exactly like How He planned it to look, I know this because I am giving it to Him and waiting expectantly for Him to come through!!