This the update to my “A Christmas Miracle” blog post. For those that did not read it…basically God led me to have nothing prepared for Christmas for my family.
And to spend my money on other (needed) things and to trust Him to make it right.
Because I have four children (who are not so little anymore but still live at home), and because those children are used to getting spoiled at Christmas (even when I cannot afford it), this caused me great anxiety.
Every time I thought of how (potentially) my last Christmas with my children all under one roof would be an empty one, I began to feel like my world was crashing in around me.
Yet I kept coming back to faith…simple, uncomplicated faith!
How could I trust Jesus to “save” me when I refused to trust Him to feed me. How could I trust him for all eternity when I could not trust him for one Christmas?
On my own I was shaky so I had to get back to solid ground.
I got out my Bible and read about how
The Scripture says, No man who believes in Him
[who adheres to, relies on, and trusts in Him]
will [ever] be put to shame or be disappointed.
(Romans 10:11 Amplified version).
I thought of all the people watching how all this “trusting God” business is going to play out… I realized that trusting God for Christmas is just a trial run for England and the rest of my future.
So I just allowed Him the space He needed to show His goodness.
Any boy did He ever!
In the interest of brevity (something I am told is important in a blog post, and is something I am not very good at) I will just say that not only did God provide for every need we had (food, drink, etc) but He also took the focus off of the things and put it on our time together (not to mention Him).
As a result I spent two solid days hanging out with my family and talking and laughing…
We also went bowling…yes bowling. We are not big bowlers but we went on Christmas eve…at God’s leading…so much fun! And so many beautiful moments…like when I watched one child help another…so cool.
And to top it off, God made sure there was a present for each of us under the tree…they were beyond awesome…mine made me cry because it is something I have wanted for a very long time.
There was a defining moment when we watched something on tv and one of the main characters said something like “people don’t often realize when they are living them, that one day these will be the moments that they wish they could re-live .”
Then it hit me
What gift God gave to me.
The gift of foresight. How being able to drink in every second and really live in the moment with my beloved family.
In the hustle and bustle of Christmas, and daily living, so many great moments often go unnoticed. This gift of clarity has been a wake up call to me. I pray that I steward this gift well.
One Last Thing
He showed me that just as a bowling pins scatter, they are always made straight and set upright in the end…just like those who trust in Him.
Is your world crashing in around you? Trust in Gods good plan for your life and you will not be put to shame.
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