Six years ago today I lost Him but gained this…


It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it.
– Lena Horne, Singer

When I saw that quote I started tearing up.

For no other reason than the fact that I realize that the grace that has been extended to me, is the reason the load that I was given six years ago did not break me.

Six and a half years ago things were great. I had been married eighteen years, had four kids, and for the first time in my life was really enjoying it.

My husband, who had spent most of our marriage hiding behind a wall, was finally coming out of his shell.

He had been saved when he found out that he had cancer, the first time, and as a result he allowed God to work in his life, becoming the husband and father that I always dreamed him to be.

The kids and I were thrilled.

But the cancer came back and took him from us.

Six years ago today,April 6th 2008, he left for his real home.

He was the strong one, we thought.

He was the glue.

I did not know how I would survive.


God graciously reminded me to give it all to Him.

So I rested in Jesus.

I gave everything, all that I had, all my worries, problems, and hurts to God.

I gave the load to him because I knew that I did not have the strength to carry it.

And what I found out was that, this is how we are supposed to carry the loads that have been given.

We are supposed to carry them to God and let go and trust God, because

He is the Glue.

He is the strong one!

The reason our heavy loads can’t break us is because we are not carrying them.

Has it been easy? Heck no!

But after all these years without my husband I am convinced more than ever that God is faithful to all those who trust in Him.

Do you have a load that is too big for you to carry?

Give it to God.

He is more than able to carry it for you!

I would LOVE to hear your thoughts on this!

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