Six years ago today I lost Him but gained this…

Posted April 6, 2014

Filed under About Me, Thoughts on Trusting God

It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it.

– Lena Horne, Singer

When I saw that quote I started tearing up.

For no other reason than the fact that I realize that the grace that has been extended to me, is the reason the load that I was given six years ago did not break me.

Six and a half years ago things were great. I had been married eighteen years, had four kids, and for the first time in my life was really enjoying it.

My husband, who had spent most of our marriage hiding behind a wall, was finally coming out of his shell.

He had been saved when he found out that he had cancer, the first time, and as a result he allowed God to work in his life, becoming the husband and father that I always dreamed him to be.

The kids and I were thrilled.

But the cancer came back and took him from us.

Six years ago today,April 6th 2008, he left for his real home.

He was the strong one, we thought.

He was the glue.

I did not know how I would survive.

THEN

God graciously reminded me to give it all to Him.

So I rested in Jesus.

I gave everything, all that I had, all my worries, problems, and hurts to God.

I gave the load to him because I knew that I did not have the strength to carry it.

And what I found out was that, this is how we are supposed to carry the loads that have been given.

We are supposed to carry them to God and let go and trust God, because

He is the Glue.

He is the strong one!

The reason our heavy loads can’t break us is because we are not carrying them.

Has it been easy? Heck no!

But after all these years without my husband I am convinced more than ever that God is faithful to all those who trust in Him.

Do you have a load that is too big for you to carry?

Give it to God.

He is more than able to carry it for you!

Why we can trust God

God is too wise not to know all about us, and what is really best for us to be, and to have. And He is too good, not to desire our highest good; and too powerful, desiring, not to effect it. If, then, what He has appointed for us does not seem to us the best, or even to be good, our true course is to remember that He sees further than we do, and that we shall understand Him in time, when His plans have unfolded themselves; meanwhile casting all our care upon Him, since He careth for us. – Henry Parry Liddon

God put it on my heart to tell this to someone

God loves you!!!! You are wondering if He even notices you, if He sees your pain, your circumstances, He does!

He is saying to you, “Lean into me, with everything that you have left. Yes, I know you are weary. Yes, I know that it has been a long time since you have seen the sun, but I AM. You are my child and I will make a way. Hold on! Get ready the sun is coming and when it does it is is going to be magnificant!”

When mature Christians go hungry it’s because of this

Posted March 27, 2014

Filed under Bible Verse, Thoughts on Trusting God

God is stirring up something in me lately and as a result some things are starting to bug me.

Now for those of you that know me, you will know that I am, for the most part a very positive person, and yet here I am bugged.

But even more than being bugged I am sad.

Why? Because we are supposed to be a people of simple faith!!!!!!!!

We are supposed to be those who are like children. A people who simply believe God!!

And yet we as Christians have chosen to mostly rely on ourselves, resulting in our becoming a people who do not really believe that God could do “Awesome and Amazing Things” through us or through others.

Jesus himself said in Matthew 19:14, “Let the little children come to me, and stop keeping them away, because the kingdom from heaven belongs to people like these.“

Who does heaven belong too?

Those who simply believe.

Think about it!! When a child is playing outside and they hear the call from their mom “Dinner!” they do not stop and think “hmmm I wonder if I should go inside. There probably is not food there, I will probably look stupid if I go to the table! My friends will think I am a sucker for believing there is food, so I better stay outside even though I am hungry.”

NO!!!!

A Child simply goes to the table and is fed!!!

We need to start believing and then acting on the things that God is putting on our hearts!!!! We need to go to His table and be fed!!!

Come on Christians, God wants to change the world through us!!!!!

But He cannot do that if we refuse to come in from the cold!!!

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A story about an Angel, a sheep, and renewed strength

Posted March 25, 2014

Filed under Story, Thoughts on Trusting God, To Know God as Father

God wants us to hold on to His promises even when it looks like they will never come true and that He has abandoned us.

Below author and speaker Shelia Walsh talks about holding on and trusting God, even when it feels as if we have been abandoned by Him.

She discusses what it was like to go from Christian TV host in the morning and Physic Ward patient in the evening, She talks about how, even though she “felt” abandoned, God let her know that He was with her.

I think it’s interesting that so often the promises of God become most real when you find yourself in a place that’s almost the antithesis of the promise. …

Romans 8 is one of my favorite chapters of the Bible. It begins with, “No condemnation,” and ends with, “No separation.” And I used to cling onto that, that nothing can separate us from the love of God.

But in that place where I felt like I’d been abandoned, I discovered that God knew exactly — in fact, I had an encounter with an angel, the only one I’ve ever been aware of, before or since — about 3:00 in the morning… I heard someone come into my room and I didn’t even look up, but they walked right up to me and stood in front of me and I saw a man’s feet, so I looked up. Looked to me just like a hospital worker going off duty, but he put something in my hands, and it was a little -it was a lamb, like a stuffed toy, and he turned and went to the door, and when he got to the door, he stopped and he turned around and he said, “Sheila, the Shepherd knows where to find you.”

And at the darkest moment in my life, when I felt as if anything that gave me any value as a human being, I heard the greatest news of my life, that no matter how lost you feel, the Shepherd knows where to find you.

I heard her tell that story years ago during a Women of Faith conference and it always stuck with me because it shows that it does not matter how we “feel,” we as Christians need to daily walk in the truth that we are never alone!